more than 5 minutes
exactly 1 week after my birthday
thanks to everyone who came and sent their wishes.
and most of all my parents who pulled this together.
and from my dad, "more than 5 minutes". the quote on my huge key to adulthood (though 21 is just a number, and i'm still a dependent child). the chinese saying, "5 minutes of passion" and then it ends. guess you can understand what my dad is trying to get across
and some pictures..
the sunday morning in the sun with a bunch of crazy people (guess who) with cameras filming cameras taking pictures of more cameras..
and when the party starts with the girls and their presents.. not revealling the camwhoring part when i was down with other friends and the "shiqi cant act slutty" and wanhui the great actoress who can take on all types of roles.. haha
my hugeeee cake. 
the people :)
my dear dear..
thanks for everything.. :)
and blogging this is tiring.. uploading pictures are tiring
birthday present
dont buy me purse and watches.
dont buy branded goods that scream "I'm BRANDED".. i'm that market girl.
dont spend too much just because its a 21st.
because really the fact that many of you have smsed me, msned me, called me to ask about my birthday and whether i'm celebrating it already means so much to me. and has brought smiles that material goods cant bring to my face.
thanks. :) just a happy birthday. makes a HAPPY birthday. really :)
sleeping beauty
the way danny sees me. his digital painting. :)
work and travel
i wanna go overseas, go somewhere far and unfamiliar.
felice is going to another work and travel trip. jiahui is going to australia for instep, jit and carol has gone to US in the summer. danny did work in esplanade and considered the instep. wanhui's gonna backpack US.. and most of the crew are going to fight for the tibetian film trip.
why am i sitting here rotting not applying for anything and not going anywhere? why am i bothered and worried about leaving the country for more than 2 mths. why am i convinced i shouldnt go yet envious of the rest? what am i waiting for? if my whole crew is to dissappear overseas, and i'm not going to film anything.. why am i sitting here with an excuse that my mum will disagree? why cant i be less bothered that its my parents hard earned money i'm spending? or am i just giving myself excuses to stay in my comfort zone.
why have i done so many mistakes this year that i'm trying to run away from and hide it as if time will heal? why am i letting all my faults get to me rather then fixing it?
why am i asking why?
maybe i should just do something about it. now.
and maybe i should finally go home.
and maybe i should trust my parents trust me.
and why have i become so gloomy?
after 7 oh-my-god hours..
i'm supposed to be doing work.. whatever it was, i didnt do.
have been slacking in a little corner in the school building with no reception for the past 7 (ohmygod)hours.. talking cork and reading graphic novels..
then we were discussing about each other. and i learnt something more about myself, or i should say i finally admit and really want to change this habit of mine. the last-minute-ness and the unnesscery compromises of mine. to learn to be anal, to want the best to shine.
to not be content.
so as to grow.
its going to be hard. but let me try. i may go out of track and give up but help me change. scold me, whatever, push me.
i guess a break from work is good.
now i really want to work.
essay tonight (i mean to-morning), painting tomorrow, production design on sat and shoot on sunday.
no point being jealous, no point hiding. gotta face the world and strive!
god bless.
land of shrooms
After finishing this mushroom land, i cant seem to be able to process other work..
i just wanna jump in and dream.
While sticking the pen in my head..
i need to connect a generator to my brain to supply RAM to run the program digital painting. every time i "click" on that program, the beachball of death appears in my head.. so much so that i want to do a painting of a wacom pen stuck into my head which is placed on a wacom tablet.
but that is so gore and i cant bloody paint blood. or i'll really do it.
then again, i'll go to sleep tonight and pray in my dreams i'll dream of what to do.
OH AND! everyone should know this.
and for the guys out there trying date a girl or just plain bringing your girl out.. or just a friendly gathering..
Free Open Air Movie Screenings
and it's not art house films, its UNDER THE TUSCAN SUN and Music and Lyrics, 2 beautiful narratives. :) anyone who wants the book "under the tuscan sun" can borrow from me.
AARGH.. i shouldnt be here.. i should be murdering myself with the wacom pen.. so yah.
I'm gonna try finding the generator.
my beloved family..
