work and travel

i wanna go overseas, go somewhere far and unfamiliar.
felice is going to another work and travel trip. jiahui is going to australia for instep, jit and carol has gone to US in the summer. danny did work in esplanade and considered the instep. wanhui's gonna backpack US.. and most of the crew are going to fight for the tibetian film trip.

why am i sitting here rotting not applying for anything and not going anywhere? why am i bothered and worried about leaving the country for more than 2 mths. why am i convinced i shouldnt go yet envious of the rest? what am i waiting for? if my whole crew is to dissappear overseas, and i'm not going to film anything.. why am i sitting here with an excuse that my mum will disagree? why cant i be less bothered that its my parents hard earned money i'm spending? or am i just giving myself excuses to stay in my comfort zone.

why have i done so many mistakes this year that i'm trying to run away from and hide it as if time will heal? why am i letting all my faults get to me rather then fixing it?

why am i asking why?
maybe i should just do something about it. now.
and maybe i should finally go home.
and maybe i should trust my parents trust me.

and why have i become so gloomy?

posted by xiaoqi.sq @ 2:04 AM